Just a collection of musings on the emotions and feelings when meeting what could be a new lover... ( this has been rambling around for a few years but have refined it a little).
When we meet someone new we all have hopes and fears .This could be the start of something wonderful and it could also end in pain.You may find further down the line you are not compatible, but sometimes that is just how it goes.
The first tinglings arrive, when you feel they have what you are looking for in a person.Then you allow those sparks to start flying, you take those first steps with someone with hope for more.
The more you talk the more you want.You fight to keep both feet on the ground not wanting to go too deep too soon. Holding on to the mind and not the heart to the harsh reality's of past hurts. Juggling the rational and irrational rolling thoughts what if this, what if that.
Your aware of how deep this could go so you fill with fear as well as excitement.You find yourself falling under their spell you fight but you fall all the same. They speak to you in volumes and touch your very soul.
You start giving a little of you as you feel deep inside that need building and aching. Then when you give and it gets returned with something bigger you feel overcome with emotion. The exchange begins learning each other what makes them tick what makes them happy or sad. Both giving and receiving building and growing.
Facing the fears that we build up over time when things fail are hard. But to give up trying is to give up living. So right now I'm living enjoying it for what is now. I hope that I will be enjoying it tomorrow too
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